AYUSH BHERWANI

On my way home from College looking out the window, I tried to imagine how I wanted things to happen. Writing a fancy story of my own I was musing about the past and how my decisions affected my own story. I was thinking, what if we hadn't met yet? Its three years and I never notice how time flew and life propelled so rapidly. You are a habit my heart doesn't want to get rid of. I certainly miss you and I feel exhausted because I'm burdened with the thought of your lips on someone else, someone who isn't me. All I ever wanted was to be called "mine" by you. I still remember when you left me for my blunders, I was so frightened to socialize, I cried at the dinner table following night before my Mom gave me a little pep talk. She told me that she'd love me the same, even if I did 1000 such blunders. People say it is the inadequacy of something that truly teaches us its value. For this is how I came to know the pure worthiness of love. 

                          You always held on to me in the bad times, long enough to hurt yourself. I know the pain I gave you, every time I made your heart ached you used to endure it for the sake of our relationship. Love is transient, it disappears with time. I still remember our first kiss we shared, and we promised the eternity, but I think it has a different sort of meaning in your dictionary. You didn't only walk off from that garden that day, but also from my life, it felt like I didn't even matter to you and I was perhaps a stranger again who used to stare you all day. I still remember the day you said yes, I was so happy that day, I couldn't have asked more from my life. You know the funny thing about the breakup; I'm not so spiritual, but I begged God to give me two years, let us be together for two years, let me live those two years and I won't ask for more. I think he heard me that day. I should have asked for eternity.               I know I had pu

She said I want to go somewhere and never come back. I grabbed her hand and intertwined her fingers tightly. With tears coming rolling down her eyes, she said," I hope you find someone better, someday, who can make you feel happy rather than unhappy. Someone who can give you more,  someone who can give you butterflies in the stomach." Wiping her tears away, I said,"I don't want to dive into someone new. I'm just exhausted by the idea of falling for someone new. I don't want to set myself free; From you; From the memories we shared. I started loving you from the moment I realized that you meant everything to me. In the population of 1.34 billion people, I came across my favorite one on the day I met you. I find a universe in you that I want to be the part of. With each passing day, I love you a little too more." With very gentle and clear voice she said,"It hasn't been easy for me, I love you, but not enough to stay, not enough to fix every

Ego and relationship are like sun and the moon, they do not go with each other. Ego is the synonym of evil. It comes with the emotions like fear, hate, obsession, and needy desire. Your ego must not be an obstacle in your relationship. The word, I has a very strong possession on our mind. We always give more importance to I than our relationship. The person who give more importance to I, is as person who thinks, he is humble and he has no ego. As long as you have an egoic mind, you cannot truly find peace in your relationship. Ego is like a parasite and your relationship is a host for that parasite. If you free yourself from ego, your relationship opens up endlessly. You have to understand that it is not always about you in relationship. Sometimes, you have to let go of things to make things right. When you apologize, the ego inside your mind will whisper to you,"What are you doing, Losing yourself ?". But it is worth losing yourself. We always come through quotes l

I don't understand why destiny brings two souls together only to tear them apart. You give your everything, you do everything to please them and make them happy, yet they screw you pushing you away. We care for them and cry over them months even after it ends. We tell them everything, and then months passes by and everything changes. It goes from "I LOVE YOU" to "I MISS YOU". It's hard to accept that the person you give everything, shatter your soul and walks off. It is even harder knowing that you are not the one. You feel so empty, you miss a piece of you. The piece, you gave them. It is hard to forget them. The moment you think you are over them, and then the memories come rushing back, and tears knock your eyes. Sometimes we want them, but sometimes we also want to get over them, but at the end of the day neither happens. At the night we miss them, we read old conversations and smile like an idiot, and miss them more. People say, it is was meant t

It is exasperated thinking, where I belong. After all these years, how could I, throw it all away? I just care too much for a person, whom I considered being my soulmate. My heart is fighting an uncharted war with my mind for her. It is difficult for me to understand my emotions , my heart craves for every single piece of her, on the other side, every time I see a smile on her face it gives me a reason to stay away from her for a little while longer. I wish, one morning I wake up in a parallel universe, where my heart does not ache so much, where I can feel her breath against my skin, and fall in her eyes all over again. Every night I drown in tears of the agony that seems endless. Losing you forever has been more painful than a breakup. Just when I try to move on in life, something reminds me of you, and I'm in love with you all over again. Everyone expects me to move on, but how could I when everything I could think about, is her. I can't lie, I really miss you