AYUSH BHERWANI

I’ve been thinking a lot about sins I committed in past and every mistake I did and the more I think the more I regret. And, I’ve spent so much time just trying to figure out where it all went wrong, where I lost it all. Sometimes we commit sins in the past, and those sins haunt us like the worst nightmare. You lose everything, your friends, sometimes your loved ones, and above all, you lose yourself. I know how it feels to be judged for your mistakes, and not for the person who you want to be. I know that feeling of being helpless, trying to justify yourself in those conservations, where people only show you your sins. I also committed sins in the past, it is almost two years and still, I'm paying every day for those mistakes. I lost everything. All I can do is sit in a corner and let tears knock my eyes, cry the hell out. It's okay to sob like a baby and let the emotions escape your soul. Not everyone who will come across the sins you committed will forgive you, But you

It was just like the worst nightmare, I woke up one morning and realized, I have lost my soul somewhere between self-esteem and faults. I struggled to hold my tears when she took steps away from me. I held her hand and tears came rolling down my cheeks and kissed my lips, the first words were please stay, I need you. My nights were sleepless, I don't know where it went, I don't remember losing it. I was caught between a flimsy heart and a sturdy mind. I had been away from her for weeks before my heart was longing to go back and relive those beautiful moments with her. Whatever it may be, I loved her like no one can, and I was still hoping for her to come back. But then, maybe I shouldn't have fooled myself like that. I tried to hate her, but missing her was much easier rather being mad at her. I know, it is different sort of place now, but three years ago it offered a sense of companionship to a lonely and sensitive boy. Three years ago I was searching for quot

Art by Rajnish Kiri Remember that time you promised me something? And it was all on your terms; that you’d never leave, that you’d always stay. I never asked you to say those words but you did anyway, solemn and heartfelt as you were. I didn’t want to believe them at first - I shook my head vigorously in disbelief. But eventually, you showed me through your kind actions how you weren't all just words. I believed your love was real but simultaneously, I refused to allow my mind swallow your promises up entirely. Then the months flew fast and we let time wear and tear us apart. Fear devoured me and I could see worry crinkle in your eyes. We weren’t going anywhere, were we darling.   And as the months flew by, you stopped whispering those three words tenderly into my ear. Your kisses went cold and every time I held your hand, they didn’t melt into mine as they did before. It was as though you did all those loving gestures for my sake just so I wouldn’t feel sad.   I co

Image by SummerDreamz Sitting in the lobby, watching beautiful stars; I sat awake whole night through. I had been thinking all kind of things that night, the smell of her body was swirling in my mind. I know she has gone away, but her presence gave me a sense of joy and happiness. All this time I never thought about our faults in the relationship. Looking to her photograph in the mobile, tears knocked my eyes and came rolling down and gently kissed my cheeks. How could she change so much? A cap on her head, blue colored top, a thin waist, it was like god has painted a beautiful painting. On her birthday, I do not remember how I passed the night in long shadows, weeping in the bed. Every memory, every detail of her is like a nail driven into my heart. I still remember the breakup day; When she slapped me in front of my sister. On that day we discussed everything, I don't know was it proper to discuss everything on that day? Sitting on the vehicle in the midst of the road, she

A star is not jealous with other star shining nearby. A rain drop does not envy with its peer. A leaf fallen on the ground doesn’t stops wishing well for other leaves still hanging. A thorn does not backbite about the rose. People feel jealous when they see someone else living the life or having the thing they desire for themselves. It is natural to feel jealous and it is nothing wrong about it, as long as the jealousy is leading the person to the racing track. Then the person can work onto his sweats to get what he desires in life. This kind of jealously every winner has experienced once or more in his life. However if the feeling of jealousy is developing anger, envy & anxiety within you, then you are not just jealous, you are feeling helpless & you are understating your ability to get something which other person possess. Jealously would kill you from inside, if you water the plant of jealousy with anger instead of hard work. You could either grow the cactus within you